I won't do it. I'm not that kind of person.
Unless you've noticed that I am that kind of person....I mean...do any of you ever note the level of bitchiness slightly higher around here on the day after the weekend? You can be honest--I can take it.
Those of us who work Monday through Friday tend to act like we've lost our minds on Mondays--as if, over the course of two days we completely forgot what time we're supposed to get up, how long it takes to get ready, what level of caffeine we need in order to feel normal, whether or not we need to thaw out the car, etc.. We awake with blissful ignorance on Mondays and wonder what the hell happened, because we were sure that we had it all together just a couple of days ago...
This morning, I forgot to make coffee.
Forgot to make coffee.
Seriously...how does a caffeine-addicted freak FORGET to make coffee? How does that happen?
The Bad Addict returns.
The Bad Addict, having created a situation in which, without caffeine and nicotine, I would curl up in a ball on the couch, emerging only occasionally for the purposes of angrily lashing out at those who might try to speak to me, sometimes 'forgets' to buy/make coffee and sometimes 'forgets' to buy cigarettes.
I don't do this on purpose--apparently, I'm just a ding-bat.
I noticed the No Coffee thing about 2 minutes before I was supposed to walk out the door this morning, and thought I might even try to scrape by with some re-heated Yesterday Coffee, but alas, there wasn't any Yesterday Coffee left, and by that time, no time to make a fresh pot.
I filled my travel mug with placebo hot water for the drive to work (AKA The Land Of Flowing Caribou) but, of course, I was twitchy by the time I hit the crosstown.
Again...I'm really bad at this whole "being addicted" thing. Its not that I am NOT addicted, because clearly I am. The good news is, it is apparently all physical and not psychological, because if it was psychological, I'd be much better at protecting my stash...
I know that the fact that I keep forgetting I'm addicted to certain substances would indicate to many of you that "quitting" those substances would be a good idea. I shall take that into consideration.
OK, I thought about it and decided not to quit just yet.
When the day comes that I stop forgetting to make coffee or buy cigarettes, then I'll know it's time.